William Oldacre Photography

Tag: memory

  • Memory – Of The Moment

    Memory – Of The Moment

    abstract expressionism, city street, urban, movement, motion, green, blue, mauve, vibrant
    Unnamed Thirty Eight — Sidelong :: (click image to see more)

    I find it really difficult to keep my perspective – I’m perpetually in the moment, so it’s really difficult to see growth and change. It’s good to be in the moment for creativity but it leads me to despair when I can’t see improvement – which by definition being in the moment won’t allow.

    This issue is tightly bound with memory – which for me at least, photographs are a powerful key for. It’s chicken and egg – which comes first. Am I in the moment because I lack memory or is it being in the moment prevents me from properly creating memory. Whichever, I have real problems remembering specifics of the past except in a general kind of large scale sense.

    Am I using photography as a crutch for deficient memory?

  • Disjunctive Time

    Disjunctive Time

    abstract expressionism, city street, urban, movement, motion, mauve, orange, red, vibrant
    Unnamed Eighteen, 2017 — Sidelong :: (click to see more)

    Time is a peculiar thing for me. I’m beginning to wonder if I have some form of memory issue. I kind of need images as a key to remember or perhaps I should say – images act as a key for memories. Today I’m feeling rather tired and it occurred to me while I was trying to remember something that fatigue particularly jumbles the order and timeframe of memories for me.

    Normally… well lets say under the best circumstances, I feel a long continuous string of actions falling away into the past, connected to now – to this moment, forming a complete array of memory. But this string becomes broken and disconnected – particularly after not enough sleep. Then time and memory become compressed, disordered and sometimes lost.

    This disjunction is kind of like experiencing a vivid dream, which upon waking feels so real, it becomes difficult to distinguish between it and remembered reality.